Oh, nice.
A remnant of my binge eating disorder.
I keep seeing the quote “Those who don’t make time for health now will have to make time for illness later” pop up on my dash, and its SO nice to see between all the ‘for the bikini! for the boys!’ posts. I want to add my story to that conversation.
I just spent the last 16 hours passing a cluster of kidney stones. What you see above is hundreds of broken capillaries (small blood vessels) from vomiting/dry heaving so hard the room sparkled and spun. The pain from passing a stone is unexplainable. I used to deal with this shit every couple months before I started recovering and getting my intake under control. Passing a stone is hell, but I feel lucky that it passed at all. I had to have my first stone surgically removed. They do that by shoving a tool up your urethra (the hole you piss out of) - up to where the stone is and pull it out. Your urethra breaks, by the way, and you have to basically regrow it around a splint while you’re recovering. Fun.
It had been 5 months since my last one. I thought I was out of the woods. Apparently not.
But this is honestly better than the surgery I had to have last August. The food I was eating & forcing my body to try and process absolutely destroyed my intestines. At age 21 I had to have a colonoscopy (a tube up your asshole so a surgeon can look around your intestines) and then a surgery that involved cutting my asshole open (imagine a Q), cutting out pieces of my intestines, and then cauterizing them shut. That means burning the wound closed.Hospital for 2 days, and then 2 weeks of sitting in a tub of water and blood screaming my head off because I was so out of my mind in pain. The surgeon told me at my follow up that the surgery I received was the most painful he does.
The effects of a shitty diet caught up to me quickly and early because of how extreme my habits were. Had I eaten normal portions of the kinds of food I was eating, the ill effects would have taken longer to show. But either way I would have had to deal with it.
Point is, having an unhealthy lifestyle and poor diet WILL catch up to you. The quote is 100% accurate. If you don’t take time to be healthy now, you’ll have to make time to be sick later.
So while the bikinis, and the sexy booty, and the fine ass men you meet at the gym are all great and wonderful.. there’s one reason to change your lifestyle that’s more important than all that. Your body will thank you in the long run. The discomfort you feel getting more active and the annoyance you feel figuring out your new diet is nothing compared to the illness you’re avoiding by changing your life.
Get healthy. I promise you it’ll be worth it.
It is so brave of you to post this. Your story is so worth telling, so many people could benefit from reading it. I am so glad that you are recovering and thank you for sharing.
